the cold weather and everything going on in my life makes me lonely. i will be fine, i always work something out. it would be nice to have someone to hold me and tell me it will be ok, but i honestly dont know of anyone who i would want to do that right now. just too much drama comes with the few that would.

ok. i thought of someone. but he is far away and wouldnt come anymore anyways.

Currently Listening Bringing Down the Horse By The Wallflowers see related

- Laughing out Loud

Peer pressure can be a good thing.

The Eq Team is hosting a western show this weekend at Miller. This week is going to be sooo busy getting ready for it. Ahh the drama.

I also had a incredeibly interesting situation in class today, but i cant put it up here cause me younger sister reads this and I don't want to look even more corrupted.

There is a dog at the pound that in his pic he looks so much like my Zoey its incredible. I am going to try and go by there tomm. A totally bad idea i know, but i gotta see him. He is even the same age as she is.

so yeah.

Currently Listening III By Joe Nichols see related

- Size Matters

 -I gotta get a new job. I hate retail. I hate the hours, I hate the job, I just really don't like it.

-I need to step it up on the school side. Things are really starting to pick up and I can't get behind.

 -I really wish my baby sister would be brought back to town. My stepmom took her to east tn to see her side of the family two weeks ago. My Dad is mopey cause she hasn' t been around for the past two weeks. We were supposed to do something when i got off work today. He never called me back.

-It's really really cold in this house. If the freakin electric bill doesn't go down I am turning the heat back up a bit. Then I will only need one comforter and two blankets to sleep at night, instead of two comforters, two blankets and layered pjs.

- My jaw hurts so bad. It never really bothered me after i fell, even though the main impact spot was my chin. Now it hurts like the devil.

--Aarrggg. That pretty much sums it all up right now.

At least I can ride several times this week. Oh God do I love it!!! It's about all that keeps me sane!!! It's so amazing to have the actual oppurtnity to not only learn how to ride, but have an awesome trainer, and a huge variety of horses to learn from!!!!

I HATE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ESPECIALLY BOYS!!!!!!!!!!

nough said

So life sucks. that is all there is too it. Too much bull shit, too much unneeded drama. Why can't it all go away. It could but it won't.

Here I am under doctors orders to rest, eat and generally take it easy. Then stupid people add more and more drama and stress to me by the hour. Just go away. all of it. please.

Oh, I passed out at work Tuesday morning, landing flat on my face on the very not soft concrete tile. Good news is no broken anything, and the swelling is going down pretty quickly. I have a huge knot on my chin and my face is bruised. Funny how this is the most makeup I have worn in who knows when. They took blood when i went to the doctors office and I am anemic, meaning i need to eat more frequently and better food, not do so much and stay as stress free as possible. like that's ever going to happen.